Tuesday, February 10, 2026

Keepsakes No Longer

My grandmother, Ruth Johnson McConnell, left her childhood tea set to me. She would have played with it 120 years ago!

It's Bavarian Lusterware, created sometime around 1900, decorated at the Greiner & Herda studio in Oberkotzau.  




The blue pitcher and orange candy bowl were hers, too. No markings on them.

I love that these belonged to her. But what do I do with them? Keep them in the cupboard? Leave them to my daughter so they'll end up stored in her cupboard? Give them to my granddaughters and tell them they can't touch them?

I don't want to make money from these pieces. I'd like to find someone who would love to have them, just because they think they're beautiful. Let me know if you're that person.


Sunday, January 4, 2026

My NYTimes-ish Tiny Love Story


I've submitted pieces to the NY Times. Got a cover caption published in The New York Times Magazine a few years ago. Every Sunday, I read Tiny Love Stories, "Modern Love in miniature, featuring reader-submitted stories of no more than 100 words." I've submitted a couple of them and never heard anything. 

This is my year of no-more-waiting, so here is my Tiny Love Story in 54 words. 


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My 3 ½ year old granddaughter, Georgia, and I bobbed in the pool. She of the goggles and arm and chest floaties announced, “Starfish!” Onto our backs, we reached out our starfish arms and legs forming one large X and one small x, the symbol for kisses at the end of our postcard perfect vacation.
 

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

Bump and Grind, in the Grocery Store

Anybody else ever feel like an overinflated, out-of-control Thanksgiving balloon in the grocery store? Do all of the carts have bad wheels? Can I really not judge the corners even though I can drive a minivan down a pothole-filled alley with ease?



Today, a woman stepped in front of me to examine flowers and essentially blocked the path for everyone else. Should I tap her on the shoulder? Say "On the left" like a bike rider? Plow into her cart? I chose to squeeze past her, and did I sense annoyance? From the aisle hog? 

Other encounters in my 20-minute shopping trip:

A man ran into the back of his wife's ankles with their cart. She exclaimed. He did not respond. I'm going to believe that he didn't hear her. 

A woman (not me! for once!) knocked over a dozen containers of fresh-baked (really?) oatmeal raisin cookies. I reached down to help her. She thanked me, and then she accidentally opened one of the containers. She closed it and put them all back. 

An argument in the wine section started strong, but he gave into her insistence that they needed something with bubbles.

I made it through my self checkout without incident, and then, the dreaded red light. So close! The machine was out of receipt paper, so, for once, it wasn't me being a grocery store wrecking ball.


Wednesday, November 13, 2024

A Secret Code or Just a Work of Art?

The “Cipher Manuscript.” That’s its official name as it resides in Yale’s Beinecke Rare Book & Manuscript Library. You might have heard it called the “Voynich Manuscript.” 

See for yourself
 



What’s known about it:

1.      It’s old, possibly from the 1400s.
2.      It’s real, in that it was really produced by human hands.
3.      It’s colorful.
 
What isn’t known about it:
 
1.      Who created it
2.      Why
3.      Where
4.      When
5.      How
6.      What language does it use?
7.      Is it a secret code?
 
Loads of people have proffered loads of “solutions” to any or all of those questions. What appears from a distance as text has been analyzed and argued over, run through computer programs, parsed by code breakers. And so far? Nothing much. While some figures repeat, I'm not sure that any definitive language, code, or exacting linguistic pattern has emerged.
 
After reading an article in The Atlantic (An Intoxicating 500-Year-Old Mystery, by Ariel Sabar, September 2024) and looking at many of the Manuscript’s pages online, I’m going to make a guess. I haven’t gone deep on research, so I’ll lay out my scenario of how the Manuscript was created using Occam’s razor, the simplest explanation that I can come up with.
 
The Manuscript’s possible provenance has been swirling around in the back of my mind since working with other children's writers on a panel about connecting kids locally to global issues, including using nature journaling. What a powerful tool! I learned so much. And because of that, I wonder if trying to decipher the "words" in the Manuscript is even necessary. Are letters always parts of words or can they be simple drawings or doodles? When I was in first grade learning to write the letters “d” and “b,” I’d write them over and over just because I liked the way they looked.

So…
 
Let’s say it’s sometime in the 1400s. Parchment pages (made from animal skin) and paints were a thing, if fairly rare, perhaps made by monks or artists. What if a woman from a group of cloistered women (cloistered by choice or otherwise)--none of whom were able to read--might have seen a nature manuscript and tried explaining it to the others who decided to try making one themselves. Nature journaling doesn't take nearly as much time as I had thought. Without other distractions and with an endless amount of time to fill, a few pages could be written in a day in their makeshift scriptorium.

It seems clear to me that the drawings were done by women because the figures are so thoughtfully drawn. The plant drawings are more abstract, like a young person learning to draw but not understanding anything about the details of plant life or, in this case, maybe women who didn't have access to plants. Zodiac symbols are something they might have seen but never understood other than as drawings.

Or maybe that woman was royalty, elite, exposed to books but forbidden to learn to read. Imagine an English-only speaker seeing a book in Arabic and then trying to copy it from memory.
 
Regardless of everything else, why not have the handwriting analyzed? I have a friend who is a handwriting analyst, and I’m going to ask her to take a look. Some things I’ve witnessed that she’s been able to see in handwriting: 

1.    a friend’s new boyfriend was a total phony (and had us all faked out)
2.    a friend’s boyfriend was a bully (that we already knew, but she only saw his handwriting), and 
3.    an acquaintance had personality issues that many of us knew about but had never discussed.

She can even read children’s printing and "see" various versions of turmoil and personality. Maybe she can at least suggest what kind of person created the Manuscript.

What do you think?


 
 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, August 23, 2021

Goodbye to the Red Dolly

I was finally ready to give away my well-used, well-loved, red, metal handcart a/k/a "the dolly." I bought it many years ago at Rolliers in Mount Lebanon with my father-in-law (who was also well-loved). It was a big purchase at that time.

Just to be sure to spell "dolly" correctly, I googled it, and a picture of Dolly Parton came up. She has definitely held up better. She's not bent or chipped, and her wheels aren't ready to come off in pieces.

Since Goodwill is overloaded with donations these days, I decided to give dolly and a few other things to VVA, the Vietnam Veterans of America. They pick up, and I'm grateful that they do that. 

I marked everything VVA.


I went to run errands, and when I returned, I could see that the pile of stuff was gone.

Except for dolly. 

Even tagged for removal, she refused. She's back in her corner in the garage. I'll try again next time. Or maybe I won't.






Thursday, July 29, 2021

Teenie Tiny Trophy

I won a teenie tiny trophy in high school. It didn't have anything to do with sports.

Kane High School was such a small school that we didn't usually compete in anything other than the basics, like football and basketball. But our theater arts teacher, Mrs. Harman (about 4 foot 9, seriously, with cat eye glasses, skinny, high energy) decided to sign up some of us theatre (!) students for a forensics competition. Speeches, poetry recitation, that sort of stuff. She just told us we were doing it. She gave me a piece of prose to read--about 1,200 words is my estimate now (I didn't keep it!). It was a small synopsis from a piece of John Steinbeck's THE PEARL. "...a tiny furtive movement..." is the only line I remember.

Anyway, we all went to Bradford (oooh, big place!) for this thing. We walked into an auditorium, and there were school teams, like sports teams, groups of kids who did this thing instead of football or basketball. We must have looked like the Beverly Hillbillies. Murmur murmur. Kane!! Kids from Kane!

Robin Hollingshead did a dramatic piece about Charles Dickens. And I did my Steinbeck reading. 

Robin and I both won. The other teams were shocked. It was my senior year or I would have done it again and again. I got slightly marked down for things like "use a folder" and "don't have piece written on both sides of paper." But I beat 16 other kids who had done this type of thing before. 

I had always been the kid who read the introduction to parents for school plays, etc., starting in second grade, maybe even in first grade. They say (who the heck is "they" anyway), that the thing you love in first grade is often what you're meant to do, to be. I guess I'm doing some version of that, writing for children, doing school visits, running a children's book festival. 

Thanks, Mrs. Harman. My favorite teacher.

Here's an interview with her from 2019: https://kanepa.com/2019/07/22/day-32-stories-from-the-early-days-of-kane-players/






Tuesday, April 27, 2021

Finding Family

Through 23andMe, I have found a branch of my family tree that I didn't know existed. 

My grandfather, Howard McConnell, is on the left, posing with his brother George in about 1904. I never knew if George had children, and it turns out that he did. He had two daughters. And now I am in touch with George's great grandson. 

My mother was an only child. Howard died when she was twelve. By then he had an artificial leg having lost one in a train accident whose details were never shared. At one point, he owned a pool hall. How was it that he married my classically-trained-pianist grandmother Ruth? Proximity, to be sure. Their families lived around the corner from each other. But I wish I could go back in time and hear the conversations they had. And I wish I could hear what the brothers had to say to each other on the day of this photo.




Mom adored her father. A daddy's girl, she undoubtedly became a different person after he died so suddenly. 







Friday, February 5, 2021

A Little Bit Alexis, in Gold

     Schitt's Creek fans, you'll remember Alexis's dress from her Little Bit Alexis dance. I realized that I have the same dress, only in gold. I almost didn't buy it, and when I got it, I no longer needed it. Here's what happened:




    I've been a member of SCBWI, the Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators for 14 years. I had never had a chance to go to one of the two annual national events until last year. Exactly a year ago, I flew to NYC to hang with hundreds of other children's writers, and I was psyched.

    The conference has a "gold carpet" event where they announce winners of their prestigious awards. Everyone is encouraged to wear gold. Planning ahead, I found this beauty weeks before the conference and planned to wear it as a top as it's pretty short for somebody my age. They didn't have my size, so I ordered the right size and waited. It wasn't coming in. The local store (Free People) didn't know what was taking so long. It hadn't arrived two days before I was supposed to leave. Change of plan: they would ship it to the closest store in NYC where I could pick it up. 

    Nope. That didn't happen. I got to NYC, and it didn't arrive. 

    It was waiting for me when I got back home. I've never worn it. And, of course, there aren't any glittery, gold carpet children's writing events at the moment. 

    What did I wear?? Well, here's me with my bestie, children's author and candidate for best human ever, Donna Gephart:



    La-la la-la-la-la-la. 


Thursday, February 4, 2021

Smells in the Time of Covid

In March of 2020, I lost my sense of taste. At my favorite Mexican restaurant, my tacos tasted like cardboard, and I couldn't smell anything. And why was I so tired that I wanted to crawl under the table and pass out? Those symptoms lasted only a couple of days, and at that time, it didn't occur to me that maybe I had the Covid thing.

Maybe I did; maybe I didn't. It's too late to even check to see if I still have antibodies. I've been in great health since. But I have experienced a new unknown smell.
I just read that phantom smells are a real thing. For me, it started a month or two ago. A smell like sickly sweet cherries. Not exactly like cherry-coke (a drink when I was a kid). Not like cherry medicine or cough syrup. Not like Kool-aid. Something I had never smelled before. It was the middle of the night, and the smell actually woke me up. I wondered if it was the smell of Red Bull.
Fourteen years ago, my friend Sam died at the age of 14. He drank a lot of Red Bull in his beautiful burst of a life. My first thought was that he was reaching out to say hey. So I, in turn, reached out to his parents, and we agreed that it was possible.
I've gotten a few more whiffs at random times, but they are increasingly diminished. So I guess it was just a phantom, unexplainable smell.
I bet Sam had a good laugh.


Tuesday, January 26, 2021

Too Much of a Necessary Thing










 Goodbye, Cactus


As tall as me,

nestled in your pot,

wheels underneath.

 

Remember when we

brought you to the office?

Six caregivers

to keep watch over you as we moved

like a parade of tortoises in the desert,

you wrapped in paper,

in human arms.

 

You must have liked

your home.

A cactus baby

emerged from your roots.

 

Joy each morning to say

Hello.

 

And then,

you were alone.

 

Ferns and violets transferred

from the university to

home offices.

 

But you,

you were too big,

and you liked the light in the conference room,

and that baby cactus,

your sprout.

 

Almost no humans on campus

and yet

Too many people tried to help you.

Too many people tried to save you.

Too many people offered you

a drink of water,

just in case.

 

Too much water.

 

Did you develop a cough?

Were your lungs tight?

Did you have a fever

dream that you were

living outside

in a rain forest?

 

I have missed you

these many months apart.

With time, though, it's gotten easier.

 

But death,

even from a distance,

is still death.

 

I won’t see you again,

but I will remember that day,

when you took a stroll around

your new home.

You loved it,

and we loved you.

 

 


Thursday, November 12, 2020

My Poem THE POINT(E)? on the website Writing in a Woman's Voice

Based on what I saw in Pittsburgh near Centre Avenue and South Negley Avenue in maybe 1986. 



 https://writinginawomansvoice.blogspot.com/2020/11/the-pointe-by-leah-pileggi-plastic.html?spref=fb&fbclid=IwAR0lS9juXk8AqbPEBpxQMYH_Ij23gHHHCStdWP8qSJNYMBXOBRtT-We9oe8


Thursday, October 15, 2020

Oh, Sneakers, a (sort of) Sonnet

 


 

Shall I compare thee to a flattened tire?

Thou art as lovely and temperamental.

Rough winds, roads, and gravel did shake your soles,

This summer, the dog, his leash hath dragged me.

Sometimes too hot paved alleys melted you,

And often was my complexion undimmed;

And every fair street when weather declined,

By chance or dog’s changing course, his hair untrimmed;

Oh, the eternal summer has faded you,

Such that you’ve lost possession of that fair thou ow’st,

And shall bring death and rebirth in recycling,

When in eternal lines to new products thou grow’st.

So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,

No longer live these stinky, filthy sneakers that gave life to me

(because walking my grand-dog wearing these sneakers was my only form of aerobic exercise for the last six months).

 

 

Tuesday, September 22, 2020

Time Lapse Tree circa 1975




My version of time lapse photography. My next door neighbors' tree, 1975.






















Little Things That Bring Me Joy #1

 #1 Cocofloss



I'm one of those people who floss every day. I enjoy it, especially when the dentist says, "Your gums are really healthy!" I can't go to sleep at night if I don't floss.

If you don't floss, maybe try a different type of floss that's softer than the traditional stuff. It's expensive but worth it. I've only used the cara cara orange flavor, but it's mild and yummy. 

I don't usually endorse ANYTHING, but this has been a nice change for me these days when any little change can be great.

https://cocofloss.com/collections/frontpage



Tuesday, August 18, 2020

Billy Collins Told Me

 

that it’s nice to include

a cat

in a poem.

 

Cats and kittens

filled my house, my yard, my neighborhood

when I was a kid

 

Cats don’t belong 

to anyone except themselves,

but they’re fuzzy, when they want to be

 

Cats have adopted people in

record numbers

now that we’re all shut-ins

 

What about

my nonexistent cat should slink into this poem?

I’ll ask it.

It didn’t like the question.

It hissed its answer then

cut with its claw

the only security blanket I own,

my ratty robe, and now

it pooped in

the suitcase I forgot I owned

 

I wish I could be comforted by

my nonexistent cat.

 

I should have explained

why a poem with a cat in it wouldn’t work,

but did Billy Collins ever listen to me?






Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Safe in the Forest


There’s a lot of space for social distancing in a forest. I haven’t been in a forest lately, but I spent loads of time as a child in the middle of the Allegheny National Forest, in north-central Pennsylvania, at a place called Twin Lakes.
The Civilian Conservation Corps (CCC) created the Twin Lakes Recreation Area in 1936. Some of the budget was diverted to another project, so Twin Lakes only ever had one lake. The irony never occurred to me; I just knew that it was a great place to be a kid in the summer.


My family camped at Twin Lakes every year of my childhood. We even had a vehicle that was used only for camping. My parents’ green and white Volkswagen—"the bus”—was already old in the early 1960s when I was a kid. My dad, a civil engineer, built a wooden cupboard that lived in the bus. It housed a frying pan, a coffee pot, a bucket, tin coffee cups, plates, and silverware. Mom would add staples like cans of beans, loaves of bread, jars of peanut butter, and coffee.
We always started our two-week stay on a weekday because there were empty camp sites during the week. On summer weekends, every campsite was filled, and sometimes the Johnsons—the family who managed the place for the Forest Service back then—would even allow people to camp in an overflow area above the parking lot.
While Dad was at work, Mom drove my sister and me, our camp shelf, our tent, lawn chairs, and beach towels, to Twin Lakes to pick out our campsite. The bus broke down more than once on the nine-mile drive from Kane, but we just waited, and eventually Dad would come along after his workday at the papermill in Johnsonburg. (On some of our camping days, Dad had to go to work, putting on his necktie before driving away from the morning campfire.)
We headed to the upper camping loop that had large, private campsites, barely distinguishable from the forest except for a fire pit, a flattened spot from a previous tent and a picnic table that blended in with the trees around it.
A large, square tarp over the picnic table didn’t just keep leaves off the table, it kept us dry, because it always rained at some point when we camped.
We pitched the tent, green canvas, fading more each year. Dad had a tent heater, like a squat version of a Coleman lantern. He’d light it inside the tent before bedtime, and we’d be toasty when we all first crawled into our sleeping bags. But the mornings were cold, even in August. Nothing like shivering on the way to the bathhouse at dawn, being greeted by a couple of fat frogs just hanging out.


I loved listening to raindrops on the tent. I loved our beach towels hanging on a rope tied between trees, flapping in a breeze. I loved pollywogs. (Were those fat frogs really once that tiny?) Also called tadpoles, they were easiest to catch in the shallow part of the lake where the little kids played. In a cup, they looked like wiggling commas. I loved the campfire, lighting it, stirring it, staring into it. I loved Little Debbie oatmeal pies, Mom’s special treat. But mostly, I loved making mountain pies: toasted sandwiches in a metal contraption with long handles. Set a piece of bread on each metal circle, fill with pb&j (or cherry or blueberry pie filling), squash it closed, then set it in the embers. Best toasted pb&j ever.
Over the years, Mom brought some unlikely things camping. One summer, she brought an easel, stretched canvases, and oil paints. The only time I ever painted with oil paints was while sitting in the middle of the forest. I imagine my painting was a bunch of green blobs, maybe with a slash of reddish-purple or white like the trilliums growing with abandon nearby.
Another unlikely choice for camping was one of our cats. Mom brought the cat because it was the only one that ever came running when she stood at our backdoor and tapped on its bowl with a spoon signaling dinner time. Her signaling device didn’t work in the forest. Neither my sister nor I can remember the cat’s name, but there was no cat after the first day, maybe even after the first hour. I imagine it went on to live a happy life, married a bobcat, and its progeny visit Twin Lakes every summer.
Our dog, Cindy, came with us one summer. She didn't run away. She was too lazy to run anywhere.
For all the years that we camped, the caretakers of Twin Lakes were Phyllis and Vern Johnson, our neighbors in Kane. They had four kids, and the kids worked along with their parents. They collected the garbage. They helped serve food in the pavilion, including the world’s thinnest hamburgers. They played cards and games with camper families who converged in the pavilion in the evenings to sit by the blazing stone fireplace at picnic tables made of whole logs.
If the mornings at Twin Lakes were cold, the lake water was colder. Suck-in-your-breath cold. I learned how to swim in that frigid water. I was maybe nine or ten when it was time to prove that I could swim by making it out to the wooden dock anchored in the middle of the lake and then swimming back. No boats were allowed on the lake, but there was a rowboat for emergencies and, apparently, for swimming tests. Bill “Moose” Johnson, a few years older than I, was given the task of rowing beside me. I made it.
Sometimes we would see the same family a couple of years in a row. One family from Georgia had a red-headed daughter my age. Her name was Melanie Mink. We were pen pals for a couple of years. I wonder where she is social distancing at this moment and if she ever thinks about those off-the-grid summers.


I haven’t been to Twin Lakes for decades. My husband is a city guy, and he uses a wheelchair. In the photos I’ve seen lately on Facebook, the lake and the grounds look amazingly the same, but I’ve learned that it’s taken a lot of work.
After the CCC building frenzy in the 1930s, places like Twin Lakes became liabilities for the National Parks Service. Although Twin Lakes remained open throughout the years under the authority of a site management company, in 2018 it was no longer open for overnight camping, due at least in part to a water issue--precipitated by a 1970s sewage system--deemed too expensive to repair.
That’s when a (truly) grass roots group of folks formed Friends of Twin Lakes ANF to “improve, beautify, sustain and preserve Twin Lakes Recreation Area for current and future generations.” Boy Scouts from Kane, Johnsonburg, and Ridgeway helped out by clearing brush and repairing steps, picnic tables, and benches. The nonprofit has received grants and donations, and one of many projects in the works will make the path around the lake accessible to folks who use wheelchairs.
With the exception of possibly running into a bear and her cubs, Twin Lakes might be one of the safest places to be right now. But when the national forests are fully open again and life is back to normal, large numbers of folks will go fishing at Twin Lakes (the lake is stocked with trout), and there are plans for live music, story times, even yoga. The campsites will be full. It will be time again to get up close to nature and to one another. Or time for a walk in the forest, not because we have to keep our distance but just because we want to.